In the evening I went to the TPT swim session. It was going fine for the first half hour. A couple of dodgy turns with the hand paddles aside. Then a length into the fifth rep I came out of a decent turn and had a massive attack of cramp in my right hamstring. Definitely a hangover from the bad hip I have been carrying. I took a big lungful of water before I could recover from being upside down in the turn. By the time I could drag myself to the edge of the pool I was already having a panic attack. It took me a few minutes to get calm enough to haul myself out of the pool. I took another couple of minutes to try and calm myself back to normal and walked back to the shallow end. I had a quick chat with the lifeguard and my coach to confirm I was ok and then got back in and paddled my way gently through another 20 minutes to minimise the risk of having another panic attack next time I try to swim.
So why such a long report on such a small event. Because it turned out not to be that small. The after effect of the panic attack is that my body still associates panic attacks with depression and anxiety problems and a perfectly reasonable panic response resulted in a physical reaction and being quite depressed on Tuesday. A bit of showery rain on top of that was enough to put me off biking. By 4 in the afternoon I was back in my PJs hadn't managed to cover 1000 steps for the day. I had to get dressed again to go out to give my sister a lift home as her car is broken. This meant that I got some Dexter cuddles. Even that wasn't enough to cheer me up. As soon as I got home I got back into my PJs and collapsed on the sofa. Total steps for the day 1241, somewhere in the region of 10% of a normal day.
With my gymPact app set for 6 days this week I have to now do 10,000 steps or 30 minutes of active exercise every other day this week. Even if I am still this depressed for the rest of the week I will have no choice but do something, or face a $25 / day fine.
Wednesday I dragged myself out of bed and tried to do a 30 minute yoga session. Quit that at 8 minutes. My hip is still tight and my hamstring is twitching. That coupled to the light layer of snow and freezing temperatures outside was enough to cancel biking again. The knock on effect from that is that I am going to cycle at Sunday's group ride rather than race at Knockburn.
I did then manage to drag myself out for another slow run. A steady (ok not so steady when I look at the breakdown) 7 mile run out the railway line. That ticked off a first attempt at my Strava 10k for April and the Strava Adventure run challenges. In the evening I did a quick weights session.
Thursday morning I was still struggling for motivation but not so much with the depression. I did a 20 minutes beginners yoga session. Opting for the simplest one I have bookmarked to increase the likelihood of completing it. Then I dragged myself out on the bike. I took an intentionally short but hilly loop to try and work a bit on my climbing on the way out and my flat out speed on the way back. I stuck to the road bike because of the wet roads. This made climbing into the headwind bearable, and still meant I came back the last 5 miles at over 21 mph, and a 16mph average for the 20 mile route. Pretty pleased with performance on that.
Friday I started with core and stretching sessions in the morning. Then I was out for most of the rest of the day to help my sister collect her new caravan. When I got back I had a nap but then managed to drag myself out for a steady 4-mile run round the block.
Saturday I started with a core session and 40 minutes of beginners yoga. I still couldn't completely convince myself that not racing Knockburn was the best option. Nor could I decide that racing was the best option. I decided to take the TT bike out on the damp roads in the cold wearing my race gear and see how everything felt. This also meant that I would get the rest of my bike miles for the week if I took the shorter option to race instead of go out with the Kintore group. It was a bit chilly but I was pretty comfortable on the wet roads. Even if I just take it as a training day with some race transition practice it is going to be more beneficial than sitting on the road bike for 3 hours. It also looks like the weather might be warmer than today. So I am back to racing. I think. Might change my mind again between now and the start line.
Sunday I got up and the sun was out. So I went to race at Knockburn. Race report here.
Technically a mile short on biking this week but three fast rides so I am actually really happy with the bike. Way over on run miles again. And a great race at Knockburn.
Target totals - Swim 1.4 miles. Bike 39.3 miles. Run 13.0 miles. 2 short core, 1 short light weights and 2 short stretching sessions. 60 mins of yoga.
Monday - Recovery jog 3.3 miles in 28 mins.
Swim with TPT 2,100m in 53 mins.
Tuesday - Depressed day.
Wednesday - Yoga 8 mins.
Jog 7.0 miles in 60mins.
Light weights session.
Bike ride 20.3 miles in 1 hr 17 mins.
Friday - Core and stretching sessions.
Run 4 miles in 31mins.
Saturday - Core session and 40 mins yoga.
Bike 8.8 miles in 32 mins.
Sunday - Knockburn Duathlon
Run 2.9 miles in 21 mins.
Bike 9.1 miles in 31 mins.
Run 2.9 miles in 22 mins.
Actuals - Swim 1.3 miles (2,100m). Bike 38.2 miles. Run 20.1 miles. 2 short core, 1 short light weights and 1 short stretching sessions. 68 mins of yoga.
Cumulative (Cumulative target)
S 20.1 (19.2), B 731.6 (719.3), R 211.6 (191.0).
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